Stay at home mommy

I have been able to be at home with my two girls ; it has been a great blessing and a challenge. The blessing is that we are able to have me be their primary care taker ; I can teach , lead and guide which are amazing blessings. The hard things seem to have a longer list. Isn't that always how it is? We see the negative before the positive. It is hard to have the lack of income and insurance that we have had in the past; also it is hard to be home all the time. I know it seems weird and strange that being home can be hard but it is. I am used to having the social interactions of many others from having a full time job up until this recent year in march. I fell and broke my tailbone February 13 2010. I was upstairs making a bottle for my new baby girl Lucia- Thankfully I had already put her down previously unlike my normal routine of holding her and preparing her dinner. We had recently moved our bedroom downstairs to have a bedroom that had room to live in - a master bedroom. We had even created a walk in closet with our extra bedroom in the basement. The lights were off which didn't alarm me; I always walked in the dark. Then the worst thing happened! My PJ's were extra long (also normal for me) as I started down the stairs my toe caught on the other pant leg of my PJ's and i proceeded to Fall and Hit every stair all the way down the stairs! I had fallen when I was 5 or 8 years old before but had not fallen down stairs since then. I fed Lucia went to bed and
couldn't move the next morning! I found out a few days later that I had broken my
tailbone -

Needless to say work became horrible because I could not be mobile
It has been 10 months and I am still in pain - I hurt all day every day - Its hard - I am wondering when it will go away

Now We are expecting baby #3 in April and the pain has intensified
I know that it is due to the pressure of pregnancy

Long story short it is hard to be home and not have my husbands help while he is gone at work. I am still looking for a job although I definitely have a full time job here at home. I don't know how everything is going to work out but I know that it will. I know that the Lord has his hands in our lives. I know that there is a purpose for our struggles. I know that the Lord loves us and blesses us. I know that even tho it is hard to understand that their is a reason for my pain and our family struggles. Sometimes it is hard to put your faith in something that you do not understand. To think and understand is not always necessary but it definatly helps. I know that the Gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored upon the earth through the Lords Prophet Joseph Smith. I know that there is a plan and that I will be able to be with my family through out eternity if I can continue to live the way that the Lord has intended.